Last weekend I had one of the most successful sessions I've had in a long time. I edited 40 pages and added 1200 words (which was a good thing because I'm naturally an under writer). It took me about 6 hours and I thoroughly enjoyed the whole time. It doesn't always go like that. In fact it hardly ever goes like that so I like to shout about it when it does but even when I have much tougher days it still feels so good and completely worth it.
As I travel further through my writing journey the burning desire to be doing this full time increases. Recently I've been thinking a lot about ways I can change up my life and bring being a full time writer into reality. I'm not naive, I know that some things are luck based as much as hard work but if you put in the hardworking you're more likely to have the luck.
I've mentioned this in a previous blog that writing really helps me when everything else in my life is tough. I have physical happy places I visit but writing is a happy place for my mind and it is a necessary part of me. And life is a bit tough just now; my work has been ridiculously busy since April, my hours are about to change which will mean I will no longer get Wednesday afternoons off which is when I have the house to myself to write. I'm having to find new times to carve out for myself. On top of all of this I've recently found out I have Lyme disease, which sucks. The antibiotics are doing horrible things to my insides and as an added bonus I have the side affect of anxiety.
All of the above alone would be enough fuel for the “change my life fire” but there's other things on top of that too and I genuinely have never felt more motivated to take control of my life and start steering it in another direction.
When you're 42, married with a mortgage and bills to pay this is not the overnight process it is when you are young and carefree. It's going to take careful planning and a lot of hard work. I don't 100% know what it's all going to look like in the end but I know it's time to be brave.
So in addition to gutting my house and purging my unnecessary possessions, you know those things you've kept in your attic for 20 years, I'm going to be moving my writing and creative journey forwards. You might see some changes to my blog - it might become a website for example. I am so grateful to those people who take the time to read and I hope that any changes I make will help people enjoy what I do more.